I lie in bed trying to fall asleep. The sounds of the night are keeping me awake. It's going on midnight and the fireworks are still strong! Boom! Boom! The loudness echoes the feelings of my soul. I am overwhelmed! Please! Please! Let the sleep come!
The darkness, the tugging is deep within me--it's trying to pull me apart. I don't understand. Everyone demanding so much..I feel as if I am spinning...I want to stop...I want to get off of this roller coaster. Please God! Show me what to do. What am I doing wrong? I go and go and go and can't get done what I need to do. And then there is the hurt. I can't give all of my family what they seem to need. Where have I gone wrong? Why can't I get the peace which I so desperately need? Why can't I please those around me so that I can have the peace I so desire? Please God! Help me! I am at my wits end!
Finally, finally, after struggling for so long, the answer comes in a still small voice. "When a man's way please the Lord, He maketh even His enemies to be at peace with him" Proverbs 16:7.
"That's it, isn't it Lord? I only need to try to please you and leave the rest in your hands."
The strong beating I felt in my chest is now quieted, my breathing is calm. "Help me to please you Lord, and to leave the rest to you."
At last I can go to sleep.
