Faith and Trust in God

Today I took Trent to see a dermatologist to check out a small purple sore on his ear. Two and a half years ago, in April, he got a very bad sunburn. He was playing soccer in Special Olympics, and since it was April we had no sunblock with us. Neither did the other parents or coaches. Nobody expected the weather to be in the high 80's with a hot sun overhead. All the athletes had a bad sunburn. After the sunburn, Trent was left with this little purple sore on his ear, and from time to time his ear peels. When I mentioned it to the doctor, she listened to what I told her, took one look at it and said, "Oh my!" Giving me a serious look, she continued, "I will give you some ointment for that. But that is going to have to be watched for the rest of his life. If there is any change, bring him in right away." I replied by shaking my head yes. I knew what that meant.

Unfortunately, when one has a disability, his or her immune system seems to be compromised. Such has it been in Trent's case. He has had more than his share of medical situations.

Today, however, on the way home I felt my self feeling depressed. I kept hearing the words, "...that is going to have to be watched for the rest of his life..."

I began to think--"Who is going to be there after I'm gone? Who is going to take care of him the way I do? Who will even know to watch this?" I immediately recognized this for what it was--a lack of faith and trust in God. When Trent was little, I would worry about certain things that might happen to him. One day my husband wisely said to me, "Why are you worrying about that now? It may never happen, and if it does, we will cross that bridge when we get there."

My, how those years have flown! Here we are at the time in our life when these worries could really take over all of our thoughts. I can not do that. God will be there for Trent when his dad and I can no longer be there. We have prayed for Trent for 28 years and must entrust Him into God's hands. He will continue to take care of him even after we are gone. He will always send someone into Trent's life to help care for him.

I do not know how parents of a child with a disability make it without the Lord Jesus in their lives. To know Him and His love is the greatest gift in the world. He will not fail me and He will not fail my son!