Surgery on Friday

Tomorrow I have surgery. My shoulder has been so painful that I know it must be done. Yesterday I found out that my insurance plan will only cover 5-10% of everything. This is VERY, VERY scary! I know many of you have heard my story, but here it goes again.

Four and a half years ago my husband and I decided to step out in faith and to prove God. I quit my job so that I could write the book that God had laid on my heart. The drawback would be that once my husband retired, I would no longer have medical insurance, but if I stayed at my job, I could have coverage there. We felt so strongly that God was leading me to come back home, so that's the decision we made.

Now is the time for the testing of that faith! Only it all happened a year and a half sooner than we expected. Not only was my husband laid off in February, but we could no longer get Cobra because the company went bankrupt. When I went to purchase my own policy, I was denied because I am diabetic. So I got a plan that basically offers a discount for medical services and pays an allotted amount for doctor visits, etc. It would have met my needs if it had not been for this shoulder problem...

For those of you who have gone without insurance, for the first time in my life, I can understand how devastating this can be. It is a horrible feeling! But I do have my own insurance company--and that is the Lord. Oh how wonderful to know that I do not have to worry about how this is going to be taken care of. My God owns everything! Certainly He can take care of my bills! The bottom line is that I can either fret and worry or I can put it in God's hands.

I am still human. I have my moments where fear overtakes me and then I must tell God I am sorry and I give it back to Him. More and more I am able to just leave it with Him.

I would like to encourage any of you who are going through a time where you just need to trust God and step out in faith--do it! God wants us to trust Him and He rewards us when we have faith. Remember the verse in Matthew, chapter 17, verse 20 where Jesus says, "...If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you."

I covet your prayers. Also please remember to pray for Don and Trent as they attend to me and do the things around our home that I usually do.

It will probably be a while before I post again. For the Moms in the Wonderfully Made Moms group, I will be praying for each of you and hope to be teaching again by October.